:) It's never wrong to cry.
It's not wrong to cry right?
Never wrong right?
Then why issit that when i cry,
some pple say me.
CRY GOT WRONG MEH?!
everyone breaks down and cry one what .
really what ..
i cry le, so many pple care.
ask me this and that.
i know they care lah.
but .. it's really irritating.
cause sometimes, after crying,
you might have let it go and pple had to remind you again.
or you are still holding on and you feeel irritated, the pple still ask.
yeahyeah, some pple after reading this post, will ask me what happened again.
BLAHBLAHBLAH, i'm not interested to say hor.
OKAY? Jesslin Tan is TIRED. STRESSEDUP.
Before that, QUARRELS. Not about me, but i still felt fustrated.
When you're a friend, you share your friend's problems.
If you're a clique, you share their problems, help them think.
instead of thinking " not my problem, don't care. "
Thats not what friends are called.
Yeah? Friends. I feel as though lots of pple don't understand it.
Maybe including myself?
Hai, my head ... damn fcuking giddy right now.
Like i've said, I'M TIRED.
Does anybody care?
Still can keep asking me do things.
Talk to me about this that don't matter AT ALL.
Got police come not my problem lah.
What?! You think i what? Ahlian ah? Thinking that i'm the one that caused trouble ah?
Yahyah, then you will say NOOOO, might be JR they all.
Like i care. I don't lah.
What?! Teachers say Crazie-seven, GANG. I already very pissed le.
You still add fuel to the fire?
That time hang out tgt, nothing wrong what.
You said " Yah, nothing wrong. But you all in a gang. "
Yeah? You also say we gang. Still say nothing wrong.
You ownself also think we gang, CFM IS SOMETHING WRONG MAH.
Sorry for saying all these lah. But i can't take it anymore.
I feel irritated. By all kinds of pple everyday.
I'm feeling so fcuking sick. But no one care what.
WHO CARES? Everyone only care about themselves.
Can quarrel cause of their own guy.
Quarrel with close friend somemore. Still call FRIEND.
Then quarrel le, backstabbed le, take it as nothing happen.
friend friend again. Ohmygod. I'm fainting.
So i'm like caring for NOTHING?!
Ohfcukinghell, MY HEAD AH, DAMN FCUKING GIDDY LAH.
No one care also. TALK TO WHO?
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS OKAY.
Hongboon ... Fcuk. D:
Pull me close,
and take one step.
22:57
:) I'm no pushover.
Today had normal lessons.
Bag damn heavy, no idea why.
Then History got test, ohmytian.
I don't know how to do lah !
Never study lor. It's a SURPRISE test.
No test, he say got test.
Got test, he never say.
Wah ._. He rule --"
Then YiLin went home at the first period.
Due to some reason. Confidential ._.
Anyway, yeah, she went home ._.
Then did our own things during English, Literature and Form teacher's period. :D
MrChen let de.
And ah, NB Rokia.
Knn, show attitude.
--" Stop there don't want walk over, must talk until liddat.
When i brought YiLin down to the office,
YiLin was on the phone and we saw Rokia scolding SoonHuat and Jefferson.
Then ah, i asked YiLin stop there.
Finish her phone call first.
Then Rokia scold finish, call the two of us.
Then walk over, she said " Why you two stop there? Got something don't want let me see issit? "
Knn, that makes me PISSED, HOT !
I straight away said " NO. "
Then blahblahblah, Knn lor. She talk until liddat.
Ccb, she no brains issit.
Nb, ARGH, it's like being accused of something lah.
Knn, oh fcuking hell, I hate her.
I HATE HER. zzz.
She eat finish nothing to do.
You know?! Ccb !
She talk that time still show attitude leh.
Wah, SLAP HER. SLAP HER. @!$^%@!%@!$&%@!
Whatever .
Don't wanna blog le lah.
My mood is SPOILED.
Some idiot ask me do things,
NEVER ASK NICELY. NEVER SAY PLEASE. NEVER SAY THANKYOU.
Talk until like i'm his DOG. Fcuk, mind your manners hor.
Knn, internet don't wanna fcuking load also not my fault.
Who tell you guys gimme so many links.
I very IRRITATED still keep talking to me.
Add more lagginess to my computer.
Godammit, do you never know that SOMETIMES, things doesn't matter to me AT ALL?
Please lah, you care? You're telling me you care.
Have you ever wonder what issit that i THINK about?
What issit that i want?
If you don't know, DON'T act as if you know!
Okay?!
Pull me close,
and take one step.
22:24
:) Happy birthday my love.
I'm back home early today. (:
Had Chinese paper one and two today.
Veryvery tired ah! :x
During paper two, i was so focused lor.
But i was about to fall asleep.
Serious, i was about to fall alseep. --"
Damn tired.
Blah ~ Then Jiarong walked out of the hall while teachers collecting paper ._.
Then ah, stayed back, slacked.
Then went home.
Nothing to blog. Byebye. (:
Happy Birthday to Hongboon also.
May all your wishes come true. (:
Pull me close,
and take one step.
15:30
:) Can i be your memory?
:D Exams have started. :D:D:D
English Paper One and Two today. :D
In the hall ._.
Dammit, damn freaking hot.
I kept fanning myself and this stupid teacher kept looking at me --"
Really very hot lah.
2E4's class is right in the middle CAN?!
Dammit, no fan lor. zzzzzz. Stupidstupidstupid.
Why SGS's hall no aircon de ._.
Okay whatever. Chinese paper tmr. (:
After exams, went to pei Davin eat first.
Then walked to the 109bus stop at the bball court.
Saw ahem and friends at the kopitiam.
Kenneth very stupid ._.
Oh well, whatever.
Then suggested to go to Changi Beach =X
So yeah, we really went.
YiLin, Carol, Jiarong, Davin and me.
Changi beach is HOT.
And we kept talking about ahem. (:
Lol! Not bad things lah. --"
Then headed to OCH.
Lol! Davin damn scared lor.
Veryvery funny. :x
I think he influenced me somehow.
I felt scared for a moment too.
OCH seems really creepy when we went there.
Didn't go in though.
Walked up the stairs nia.
Damn spooooky ._.
So dark. Mamamaaaaa, i scared :x
Lol! Davin damn STUPID. ;x
He at first say don't wanna go in.
Then when we were at the bus stop waiting for the bus,
he told YiLin he wanna go in.
But with more people --"
Lol! It's really stupid.
And YiLin also wanna go in wor.
I rmb last time ask her go, she DON'T WANT lor. --"
Blah, read from Carol's blog that nicholas wanna go also --"
Nicholas ownself also will scared lor! :x
What sia, he go there protect YiLin ah! :x
Lol :x Jokingjoking. Hahaaaa.
I better ask when they are going.
So that i could bring my DS. :D
Lalalaaa ~ For songs lah ;x
;Pp 109bus journey is long hor! ;x
Memory - Sugarcult. :D
Rule ! <3
Pull me close,
and take one step.
21:46
:) Jiayou, Boy.
(; Good evening everyone. :x
Okay, i woke up at 7.30am this morning to go to the toilet :x
Lalalaaa ~ It felt like school time somehow.
Anyway, then i slept and woke up at 11am.
Then watched tv.
Played DS. (:
New game. Surgery kind.
So hard ._.
Hahahaaa.
Later gonna watch tv.
Sunday is a boring day. ):
Boooooooo.
I think something's wrong with my ds.
It can't seem to well, adapt to any skins i put in.
That's dumb ._.
Okay, whatever .__.
Byebye. :D
Goood luck to the crazie-seven in your exams.
And SGS schooolmates. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Pull me close,
and take one step.
18:47
:) I feeel bloated. ;x
((: Went to my ahgong's house. :D
Ate a lot. I don't think i can digest everything in one day. --"
Ate shark's fin, prawns, HOTDOGS:D, rice(duh!), seaweed chicken, fishbaaaalls, longan drink. Aiyah, i ate alot jiu dui le. ;x
Damn full lah! :x
Hmm, it's my ahgong's bday. :D
So it's quite a feast.
I'm SHOCKED by something.
Dots, never expected her to do it.
Never expected us to find out. --"
Oh well. Whatever. (:
Hmm, i just realised DS can put songs :x
Lol! Next time go out can use DS listen songs. xD
Quite loud also.
I'm so happpy.
At least i can listen to some songs on Carol's bday.
Should be bbq-ing that day.
Not very sure. --"
Haven't decide haohao.
Still must buy foood and so on.
Who knows how to bbq huh ._.
We girls are failures. :x
Esp. Pohmun and I.
We damn scared of fire. LOL. :x
Have to rely on others to help us barberque. :x
Hahahaha.
Exams are round the corner.
And i'm not in the mooood to STUDY! :x
Diediedie. It's the end. LOL.
Just remember someone said it on friday.
Lol! :x Lalalaaa ~
Byebye. :D
Pull me close,
and take one step.
23:58
:) Wahlao, you are a lousy consellor.
Hai. Bad Night. --"
Nicholas Yeo sucks --"
Everyday only know how to YiLin here and there.
Stupid --"
Anyway, woke up at 6am today.
Then i slept back.
Till 10.30am.
Later going my ahgong's house. (:
His bday ._.
Oh well, RIGHT, today I'm gonna cook Maggi. :x
I VERYVERY long never eat le.
Shyt, i keep sneezing like wth. --"
Audrey went out with rae already.
They going amk hub. --"
Then later go back home.
Then go ahmah's house.
Okay, shall end here.
Shyt lor, from the starting when i blogged,
i sneezed. Until now,
I'm still sneezing.
Pathetic --"
Pull me close,
and take one step.
10:52
:) Bloodyhell.
Oh fcuking hell.
I blogged and suddenly,
i decided to not post it.
Knn. Zz.
Crazie-seven,
so many quarrels.
What? 2008 sucks eh?
Pull me close,
and take one step.
22:07
:) ):
No mood blog, but will summarise a bit lor.
Erm, went to school.
Reached rather early this time.
Patricia didn't go to school, cause sick.
Class so quiet ._.
Oh right, i wasn't in a very good mood in the morning.
I should say, i was PISSED and i felt like crying.
--" I fought with my brother in the morning.
Knn, feel like slapping him, but obviously i didn't lah.
Then had Chinese, passedup Compo.
Then had Science.
Mrs Chong never come --"
Anyway, had open book test.
How i hoped she came lah, exam coming still can don't come. D:
Then went for recess. Ate.
Then had English.
Did some things on art. For the exam.
Then had Geography.
Hmm, CA1 --" Don't wanna say. Hush.
Then ah, stayed back.
Slack, went home. Blah.
Whatever. Bye.
Pull me close,
and take one step.
21:38
:) I miss those times. ):
Hmm, went to school as usual.
Had PE.
Dammit, ran 2.4km --"
I pass leh !! :x
By 5seconds ._.
Lol, got pass can liao --"
I failed last year :O
Lalalaaa ~
After running, i nearly fainted lor.
Nb, i go toilet that time,
Suddenly cannot stand still. D:
Blah, whatever. Who cares anyway.
Then had Maths<3 Finished my Paper Two le. :D
Then er, went for recess. Ate nuggets only. ):
Then went back to class for English and Literature lessson.
Damn boring, felt like sleeping.
MrChen sucks when he doesn't allow people to do other things during his lesson.
Stupid --"
Then had Chinese.
Okay, never passup Compo :X
Then blah, MissHuang at first ask everyone to finish by today.
Then was like, HUH? I NEVER BRING BOOOOK. :x
Then she asked me something :x
I also don't know what to answer her lah, i feel guilty that i didn't do her work.
Then ah, i jiu liddat lor.
She asked me to sit down despite me not doing her work.
Tian ah, i love her lah. :D:D:D
Then, i asked her how to do letter writing.
She jiu gimme paper do. :D
Then i told her, i tmr pass up two compos to her. :O
So yeah, that's the REASON why, I did my compo just now when we went to Yingyu's Condo again. :D
I finished le. :D Shiok!
Today almost whole afternoon playing Billiard lor. (:
Until 9pm. :x
Eh, 2pm to 4pm. :D and 7pm to 9pm. :D
Yingyu de jiejie de friends ah, so bad lor. Zz.
They wanted to book leh.
Then ah, he went to tell the security guard he did internet booking.
Then the security guard asked him to show her the paper.
Wah, then they never show.
So they can't play. :D
Actually lah, they like very unfair --"
That time right, we let the jiejie and friends play half an hour.
Then ah, play le nevermind.
She go home still scold Yingyu for booking first.
Then ask Yingyu the next day don't book, cause she wanna book.
Then it's like, i bet if we asked them to let us play for half an hour,
They would say no. --" Blah, whatever.
Went home and blah.
I miss those times.
I miss those times with you.
I wanna be with you again.
But ): I feel rather uneasy when they start talking about you and Ahem.
Hai ): What can i do? Nothing.
Blah, i think i would rather have been your Gan-mei before, then your ... ):
Pull me close,
and take one step.
21:36
:) ):
I'm back home. And my mood isn't good ._.
Lol, whatever. (:
Woke up in the morning, went to school.
Third to reach. :D:D:D
Then eh, blah, had Science.
Then Maths <3
Then Recess. Then History.
Did source-based questions.
Then had English and Literature.
Then had Assembly.
Prefects Investiture. :D
Then Blah, had Conversational Malay.
Today not that boring. :D
then went home after that.
Yilin and i chatted.
From 4+ to around 5.45pm? xD
Hahhaa, then came home.
And Nicholas said i was CHILDISH and STUPID --"
Cause i put Hitsugaya as my DP.
SO funny, he said Hb too. :X
Lol, hush, don't say ;x
Lalalaas ~ But he joking lah.
Pathetic sia, then i talked about YiLin. :X
Hahahha, don't wanna blog le.
Byebye. :D
Pull me close,
and take one step.
18:13
:) I<3theRain. :D
(: Woke up at 6.30am today.
It was raining in the morning.
Ooooh, i love it so much when it rains. <3
Hahaha, then went to the bus stop, rather early.
I have no idea what time --"
I forgot to look at the time when i went out :x
Anyway, took 74bus, saw Yingyu.
Then waited at the bus stop for the Girls.
Ended up, wait until 7.24am, i think ._.
Then went back to class.
Saw Pohmun and Patricia there ._.
YiLin and Carol were later than me today. Lol. :x
First time leh ! ;x
Thenthen had Drama.
Then History. Did source-based.
Then went for Recess.
Then had Chinese ._.
Wah, Compo again --"
Then had Geography.
Then had Maths. <3
Finished our Exams syllabus le. :D
But ah, she never teach word problems.
Actually, she never teach also never mind.
Must try to work it out on our own.
It will be easier to rmb this way. :D
Then had Art --" Rokia got course ._.
Then stayed back with MissYellow :x
Okay, it's MissHuang. Our lovable chinese teacher. <3
Hahaha, then then did Maths Paper One.
Finished le, then i very tired ._.
So i listend to songs using YiLin's phone. :D
Then did one question on Paper Two.
Cause Pohmun asked, until now, i still don't know --"
Blah ~ Ate Chicken rice. Went to carol's house.
Stayed there till 7pm.
Walked home, bought BubbleTea from a newly opened shop.
Must try :x Then went home.
Ate dinner, then now blogging. xD
Okay, i go drink my Bubble Tea le. :D
Byebye.
OH RIGHT, Soonhuat, Adam and Jefferson are like ._.
They were talking about ahem having a stead.
Then they have no idea whether it's true or not.
I also lah :x
Then Adam said " Jesslin, don't sad, don't sad. "
LOL, Then Soonhuat and Jefferson would say " Don't cry don't cry "
Wah, very pathetic. --"
It's none of my business. :D
I'm busy focusing on my Maths, yeah?! :D
Hahaha, QUARREL END LE MEI YOU?! :x
Pull me close,
and take one step.
19:46
:) I want an Mp3 or a Phone. ):
Hey people. (:
Hai, Monday.
It's rather sucky cause it was DAMN FREAKING HOT in the morning.
My back was aching too, wth? --"
No phone D: No music. I take the bus until headache lor.
Wah, i feel crying ~ Lol. --"
PHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY. ):
Er, reading period, sucks like wth. --"
Then English. Erm, boring? --"
Oh right, comprehension ._.
30/50. Pathetic :x
I think the highest is Afrina, she got 31. :D:D:D
Then went for recess.
Then had science. I like doing worksheets on Atoms &&Molecules. x)
Then Home econs.
I stared at THIN AIR then Afiq kept calling me,
but i didn't answer. Until i saw YiLin's head ._.
She told me Afiq called me TONS of times, but i didn't answer. :x
Hahaha, paisehpaiseh, deep in thoughts. x)
Then after that, went somewhere.
Forgot where --" Oh right, wanted to play Billiard.
Got people book, blah, tired of saying what happened after schoool.
All i can say is i reached from at around 6.50pm.
And i REALLY need a watch --"
Byebye. (:
For god's sake,
I can't even voice out my opinions.
So funny. LOL! :x
But small kid ... and Big kid ... Both got wrong lah dey.
Or maybe not. But it will be a HUGE misunderstanding if both not wrong.
Am i right? If i say Mandy getting jealous was wrong, then it would be INCORRECT.
If i say Small kid playing until not knowing she's ahem was wrong, then it would be INCORRECT too.
Cause, Okay, the Small kid's one didn't make any sense. But for Mandy de yes. :x
Anyway, er, --" Forgot what i wanna say. Think THINK THINK. :x
OH RIGHT, if it's both incorrect, means it's a big misunderstanding le right?
Cause Mandy isn't wrong in getting jealous, Small kid wasn't wrong by playing.
Rightright?
Mandy didn't think that Small kid was really SMALL AND CHILDISH (:x), that's why she got jealous.
Small kid didn't think that being playful with Boyboy would make Mandy jealous.
So it comes back to a misunderstanding. Right?
I don't know if you guys will understand, i'm getting rather blur myself by typing it out.
--" Okay, i'll try to figure out what i'm trying to say.
Speak to me in real life ? x) Crazie-seven won't spilt, Right?
Forgive &&Forget! :D
That's what everyone should do. Don't bear grudges. x)
To Small kid : Accept it and let it go. Right, think in their shoes, don't say you TRIED hard means you really DID try hard, yeah?
To Big kid ._. : Er, no comments, cause i don't know your story well, but, i can say, i ain't siding her. Neither am i siding you. Cause i understand what both are thinking? No, i can understand why you felt that way. Hahaha, cause even i, would get jealous too. :D Peace ~ :D
Pull me close,
and take one step.
19:37
:) I'm in no moood for exams --"
(: Morning people. :D Hmm, woke up at around 8plus x) Had a very pathetic dream about someone --" LOL, a very PATHETIC dream, i tell you.
Aiyah, i don't feel like blogging right now --" I have HOMEWORKS to COMPLETE. CHINESE D: LETTER WRITING AGAIN! D: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Blah, chaos. ;D
Updated. :D
I just realised that i still have Maths Homework to complete --" I've only completed it half way on Thursday at the Clubhouse --" And, yeah, i was busy audi-/ing just now. New friends, New games. xD Shall blog later again. Or maybe tmr. :x Bye.
Pull me close,
and take one step.
10:21
:) I'm fated to lose my phone. So, i shall live with it. :D
Hey people. (: Jesslin Tan is all smiles right now. :D Lost le jiu lost le. Some things are meant to be lost. (:--" BUT, I'm NOT happy because i can get a new phone. Cause I'm not getting a new phone until my parents has the money to buy a new one for me --" I'm just gonna be PHONELESS. And reminder to all, 96125464 is no longer in use. You are allowed to delete my Hp number from your contact list and just add my House number --" If you wanna contact me, call my friends :x Which is like, impossible to contact me anymore. Cause how can you possibly have my friends number :x Unless you know them, ofc.
Blah, I just did a POWERPOINT of myself?! LOL, no lah. It's a Diary. An Online Diary. (: For the sake of fun. :D I have MPI le. But that DIARY is for my personal use. I need not tell everyone ALL my secrets and feelings right? x) hahaha, blah, seeeeeeeeeyou guys. It's 12.20am! I have to sleeeeeeeeep. NIGHTS. :D
Don't ask me about my phone anymore --" Ty. :D
Pull me close,
and take one step.
23:59
:) fcukyou fcukyou fcukyou lah.
Fcuk that cheebye that stole my phone!
Hai, overslept today ._. Woke up at around 12.38pm. Was supposed to meet Pohmun, Patricia and YiLin at 1pm --" Blah, anyway, met Yilin at Hougang Interchange. Patricia not ready yet. SO, Yilin and i chatted at the mrt station. Till some time, then board the Mrt. Reached DoubyGhaut. Took Mrt to Cityhall. Then took Mrt to Bugis. SOME FCUKING CB FAT GUY IN HOTPINK POLO TEE SHIRT, STOLE MY FCUKING PHONE. Knn ._. Hais ._. What was i thinking, SERIOUSLY! Argh, i was like thinking, my bag keeps moving. Then it's like i thought the guy's hand got stuck so he's trying to move it up, or he's thinking of molesting?! Then i was so GLAD my bag was like blocking my butt, who fcuking knows, HE'S ACTUALLY STEALING MY PHONE. Knnbccb. --"
Seriously, wtf was i thinking?!?!?!?! Argh --" Then ate at Pastamania. Went to FancyPapers to buy some PAPERS for Art. Finished buying. Mine cost the less. xD 1.30$ nia. :D Yilin de 1.60$ but she bought two papers and one ribbon only. LOL. :x Pat 3$, Pohmun 5$ plus. Lol, i bought more paper than Yilin, but all cheap cheap de :x 20cents and so on. Most expensive de, should be 30cents. :x Hahahaha. Then after buying, went home lor. --" I scared my mama scold. :D Seriously --" But no point scolding, but my phone ._. My music player. Godammit --" MY MUSIC PLAYER. How i fcuking hope he had stolen my money instead of my phone. Really, i swear, if it's my money that's lost, i won't fcuking care. But not my phone. --" I'm SO GLAD i didn't bring my DS lah.
One more thing, we saw the same guy when we were heading home from Bugis. Fcuk man, TOTALLY THE SAME. HOTPINK polo tee. FAT guy. RED specs. Knn --" But we cannot just straightaway go there, OIE, WHY YOU STILL MY FCUKING PHONE right? Also not sure lor. Hais. CCCCCCCCCCCCB. --"
Hais, FCUK THAT CB THAT TOOK MY PHONE LAH, KNN. --"
Oh right, don't call or sms my phone hor.
Waste your own money nia.
Pull me close,
and take one step.
18:13
:) E-learning day. :D
Erm, going out now. ): I shall blog later. Sorry. Bye peeps.
UPDATED. :D
Woke up at 8.58am. :D Hahaha, early sia :x Then brushed my teeth, started on E-learning stuffs. So blur lor. Finished everything at around 1.17pm. Dammit lor, i got 12 conversations going on --" It's like, classmates are asking me how to do this and that. Cousins are talking to me. Pohmun lah! :x NEVER ONLINE HELP ME D: LOL. :x She woke up at 8am to do lor. --" So early, biantai de ;x
Anyway, went to Yingyu's condo at 2pm. Played pool. :D Till 4pm. No one booked after that, so stayed there for a while. Then YiLin and I went to find Joycelyn. (: Slacked a while. hais;still you didn't get it in. stand in other pple's points of view. think differently, you will understand someday, kid. Then YiLin went home. Joycelyn and I continued slacking. Chatted a while, then went up to Carol's house to relieve ourself ;x hahaha, Thanks Carol! :D:D:D:D Then went down. Saw Jacky and co. Then walked home lor. (: Nothing much today. Pooh rules! xD
Good that they are back together again.
Treat your relationship as something important.
It's nice to have a guy beside you.
It's nice to have a girl beside you.
Problems are essential.
It's just a test to prove your love for each other.
Take it on, Happily and Proudly.
If you manage to overcome it,
Things will go smoothly.
Last long with him. :D
Pull me close,
and take one step.
12:26
:) BFF, is really nothing.
Hmm, went to school as usual. Late today --" What a bad day! Bus so damn fcuking late --" Reached there at 7.03am. Took the bus at 7.17am and reached school at 7.31am. So damn late lor, happy new year to all. Bus so slow --" Then late one time nia, never mind lah ;x
First period, PE. Ran three rounds. Walked throughout Second &&Third Round. Wanted to play Badminton. Wind keeeep blowing. Ended up, sat down and chat for a short while. Then went back to class for Maths. Finished Chapter4 le. :D Then er, went for recess. Ate and went back to class. Had english lesson. Did comprehension. Then had Literature, group work. Pissed ._. But i was kinda petty, but since she keeps disagreeing with me, then let her be lor. Zz. You ain't no princess. LOL, then had Chinese. 2E2 came again, Keane made tcher pissed. Tcher scolding still dare laugh, CLAPS for him --" Then blahblah, got homework. Then Carol wanted to sit for retest. Ended up, Tcher so late haven't come ._. So ran off.
Went to Yingyu's house. Played from 1.45pm to 2.30pm and let Yingyu's sister play for half an hour. Then booked 5pm to 6pm also. Waited till 5pm. Found out that someone else used Internet to boook lor. Knn, wait for nothing ._. Then stayed in the clubhouse for a damn long time. Before deciding to head to Hougang Point. Did nothing there too. Hai, sent Yilin home and i walked home myself. ):
Blah, Friends are Forever.
Guys are Nothing.
Don't break a Friendship because of a Guy.
After all, She is a Human too.
Pull me close,
and take one step.
22:42
:) BILLIARD <3
school as usual. :D Nothing much changed. :D Except that, the councilors are on duty today. xD NO NEED TAKE CARE OF CLASS LE, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! :D anyway, stayed for Conversational Malay. Too tired to learn malay today ._. Slacked all the way. But got do the questions given. Then after school, went 107 and saw Johnathan's ezlink card. DAMN CUTE SIA HE. :x I swear man, he's super cute when he was Sec one? or Primary6? ._. Whatever. But he didn't change much lah, just looked for mature now. Hahaa. :x
Then waited at the BubbleTea Shop there. Damn long, then Yingyu suggested to go her condo de clubhouse play poooool. :D:D:D So, we went. :D Excluding Mandy, but including Jiarong and Davin. xD Reached there, started playing at 6o'clock. Damn funny lor xD BVG. xD Boys VS Girls. :D Then Pat &&Yilin, Davin &&Jiarong. Carol and i didn't play. Don't know how to play mah :x Hahaaha, they play until very funny lor. xD Blah, stayed there till about 8pm. :D Tmr might be going again. MIGHT nia. Cause very fun xD xD xD Blah, i was drenched just now. When i went to hougang point, drenched like wth. ;x Head to Toe. --" Very paiseh :x
Blah, don't wanna blog le. :D Tired :x Must bathe :x I just reach home nia --" Blah, CHAOS. :D
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20:15
:) I don't my mood to be affected by all this kinds of things.
HEY PEOPLE. :D Hmm, was latest to reach today ._. Blah, 74bus full as usual. Took 165bus. Saw Joycelyn at the bus stop too. Then went to schoool. Bag damn heavy ah ._. And ah, we sat at the back today. Cause no space. Then the counsellor taking our class area, was like standing behind me and saying " not again. " Then i turned and said, " no space mah. " then he said " yes, i know. " then i jiu, okay lor. at least she not like some idiotic teachers ._. Blah. Then had Drama. --" Chose our own group for Drama lesson today. :D Teamed with Aman, Afiq and Carol. Hahahaa. :D
Then had history lesson. Test4. Damn bloody hard --" I had to used the word " Bloody " for some reasons ._. It's the first word that came to my mind on how to describe how hard it was :x Blehs. ;Pp Anyway, i didn't do really well for that damn test. Tmr got retest lor. --" Not sure for WHOLE class or just those who failed. Hais --" Then had recess. Ate MeeRebus. Then had Chinese. Teacher angry at the end of the lesson. Cause class very noisy + Adam &&Kitson keep playing with the screen --" She off-ed the lappy lor. I'm like the only one who say how pissed she was, okay!? --" Everyone else were still playing. Soonhuat standing infrnt of teacher, also don't know she pissed le. Hahahaa. Then had Geography --" Got 15upon16 for MapReading Test. Dammit --" One mark nia --" As usual, only Pohmun got full marks. Hahahaa. :D
Then had Maths. (: A lot of people got full marks for the test. :D Then got homeworks ._. Learned more things, but i already know how to do le --" LOL! :x Then had Art. --" Needa buy papers for Wedding Invitation Card. But i didn't buy. So ugly de --" Saturday go Bugis buy with Pohmun and Yilin. But Yilin not confirm lor --" But should be can lah, Exam work leh ;x Then pei-ed Pohmun went to class put up the stupid paper that Rokia wanted her to put --" Then slacked in class for a while. Then went 105 find Jiarong. Then Carol &&Patricia went home. Yilin and I jiu pei Mandy &&Davin slack lor ._. Slack until very sian. Hahahaa. Don't wanna elaborate any further. Cause, nothing much to say --" Blah ~ Went back home at around 5.45pm. :D
Ate hotdogs and FISH for dinner. :D:D:D I'm so happy. x) Hotdogs ~ Hotdogs ~ Have been eating Hotdogs sia. :D:D:D Blah, then was on the phone just now. Sorry ah, to ahem ._. I kinda not interested to listen about those things :x Plus, i can HARDLY rmb what you said even on those i wanted to know :x HEHHEHEE, sorry. :x Don't get angry wor! :D
I'm bored, I'm tired. ): I wanna sleeeeeep. ): Joe is super lame :x Hahahaa, he remained SINGLE for 1year5months sia. HOW SURPRISING! :x Hahahaa, he said life wasn't good, cause his studies not good. :x Flirt too much le :x Studies dropped ~ :x Laalalaaa. ;x Hahaa, don't wanna blog le. Tired ): Yawn ~~
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20:02
:) Hais, BFF, is there such thing in the world?
Hais ._. Happy mood gone. I'm dying of boredom ._. I lent Sandee my DS cartridge for two days, starting today. And who knows, I happen to be bored today --" Okay, Ahem is online right now. Haven't chatted with her for like ages. And she happen to tell me something which kinda makes me pissed ._. You know, HE asked her to DELETE her account. For like, what fcuking reasons?! I don't know ._. But the reason she guessed was " don't want me contact other ppl lor. " Wth? ._. I feel like chopping the two of them up. Argh, Dammit lor. She made me feel so disappointed in her, y'know? Because of her, I've decided ONE THING. I'm not gonna have any best friends. I'm just going for friends to get along with. No more BFF. NO MORE. For the time being ._. But, argh, She's not even contacting me lah. Pathetic. That stupid guy, does he really treat me as though i'm transparent? Ohmyfcukingtian, HE TREATS ME AS THOUGH SHE ISN'T MY FRIEND NO MORE. FCUKIT. Oh, fcuk. The thought of him always drives me angry. PissedOff, okay!? I feel like banging my head against the wall and DIE. Tian ah, if he's so important, don't treat me as a friend anymore lah. It's not like I'm petty or whatsoever, I did consider your feelings. I did consider his feelings. I saved your relationship by lying. Y'know, for the sake of that damn fcuking relationship you two are having, and what did i get? I'm fcuking treated as a transparency and a puppet. Please lah, he will understand if he really loves you. You ain't a girlfriend to him, you're kinda like his PUPPET. I swear you're gonna lose your friends like that. I feel like talking to your mother ._. I miss your mother, i seriously wonder what your mom thinks about this relationship and OUR friendship. ):
I'm sorry, but i'm afraid i would have to let you go. ):
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20:34
:) Lalalalala.
:D let's start off with a happy mood! :D I'm indeed happy today. Hahahaa. Anyway, we were supposed to have ReadingPeriod. But changed to FormTeacherPeriod. Then ah, Rokia came :x LOL, she changed a lot of our seating places. It's a bit stupid when she said that from her memory, she feel that some of us are not sitting at the places she gave us. Carol and Patricia were already sitting tgt from the start. It WAS the place she assigned them with. BUT, she changed theirs ._. Then Yilin changed to sit beside me not long ago. And YET, she didn't change ours. It's like, huh? Your memory is good? ._. Lol, but she also said she don't wanna put same races tgt. Must put different races tgt so can communicate. Hahahaa.
Then had English. Right, had spring cleaning first ._. Scrubbed the table till want die le lor :x Blah, then did some worksheets and went for recess. Erm, ate friednoodle ._. plus Curry :x LOL, new creation. xD Then went back to class for Science. Dots, learned everything on Physics le. But nothing went into my brain :x I hate Physics. :x Then had HomeEcons. Revision for two weeks ._. Played a so-called-game lah. :D Quite fun. My group keep getting FIRST to complete sia. :D :D :D Got hamper to give us the next lesson. xD Hahahaa, after school, went HougangAve1 there de Clinic. Cause Patricia wanna see doctor. Then after that, Pohmun went home. Pat, YL and I went to find Carol. Did homeworks there. Then slacked a while with Davin and Alex o.0 guess so :x Anyway, damn cute lah YL. She hyper lor :x Keep making me laugh :x Hahahaa. :D :D :D Seee, i told you i'm in a happy mood today. :D
And NOOOOOOOOOOOBY-ME, hmm, tell me who you are, PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :x Tell me lah ~ I don't mind de. :D :D :D I just wanna know who you are :x Then when see you in school can say hello =X Okay, that's stupid :x Blah, just tell me who you are. :D
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17:28
:) Is it you? ):
(: It's 9.45pm already. :x Most probably after this post, I'm off to bed. x) Blah, oh right, i finished my homeworks already. :D YAY! :D :D :D hahaha, i finished all my three Compos ._. Wah, that feels great :x No more owing the teacher homeworks. xD hahaha. :D :D :D I'm happy :x
Hmm, ChannelU is playing Deathnote2 now. :D Very nice. :D Watched with Audrey and co. when the movie came out. Didn't regret lah. :D :D :D Hahahaa, i wanna emo a while :x Aiyah, also not counted as emo. A lil sadness in life is essential, okay?! If not, you won't be able to understand those who are feeling sad. So yeah, Sadness is essential. :x Hahahaa. I'm crazily in love with the song " Is It You " by Cassie. :D It's one of the songs from StepUp2. But it's played at the end of the movie. :D Hahhaa. ;x I shall try to find the lyrics and song when my IE is working properly ._.
Oh, I miss you so much right now. :x School's starting tmr. :D :D :D Can see you le :x But, going to school is almost the same as NOT seeing you. I don't usually get to seee you in school too --" Is it you? Is it you? Maybe you're the one i've been waiting for. Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one i need? ): Aww, i feel like whispering ILOVEYOU into your ears like how i used to :x Blehs. Lalalaas ~ 100307<3
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21:45
:) Guys ..
GOOOOOOOOOD Morning guys! :D JESSLINTAN WOKE UP AT 9AM! HOW SURPRISING :x Okay, whatever ._. I slept at 11pm last night. :D I'm gonna do my Compos later on --" Joycelyn is retarded and dumb and stupid and blahblahblah :x She wants SOMEONE's email. But i ain't giving her ._. She logged in to her old Hotmail account to find --" LOL, waste time hor? Also not someone IMPORTANT. He's nothing to me. :D Nothing to her. :D Hahahas. :x I'm going crazy ._.
And i think ah, ------- is jealous of --------. Cause ah, he tagged him lor. ;x Like very stupid lah, I really don't know what a guy is thinking sia. They like to make a mountain out of a mole hill because of a girl. It's like, huh? I wouldn't want my Bf to do that. Therefore, i won't let something bad happens, y'know? But, guys ._. so hard to understand. Diao. Bye guys. :D
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10:07
:) 040207<3
): hey people. just finished a FEW of my homeworks. I'm currently left with two Chinese Compositions ._. That's bad --" Blah~ I couldn't find my Compo book. :x But, whatever, i can't be bothered to search for it and do it tonight. I'm too tired after doing so many homeworks at one go. :x lalalas ~ i don't wanna blog le. --" i typed so much just now. Then ah, something happened. And all gone --" It always happens when i type > and <. LOl. :x
I do admit that i still love you. I do admit that i still miss you. I do admit that i still want you. And, I also admit that, i'll never get you. ): Hais, you really don't want any presents ah? ._. I didn't give you any last year. Even your advanced BdayOuting was DESTROYED by me. ): I'm sorry, serious, I swear. After that incident, even till now, i've NO IDEA how to face the bballers. ): I could still remember very clearly, everything that happened that afternoon, that night. I have no idea why. Your words. It was harsh, but i deserved it. I guess, i was at fault. Even till today, i never thought of stepping into Kovan unless necessary. ): Boy, how i hope, i am left with only good memories and not bad ones. ): 040207<3
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22:50
:) I'm gonna faint of HUNGER! ;x
hey people. I'm back ._. very early hor x) finished the project le. Like, FINALLY. xD hahahaa, I'm so happy --" blah ~ who is "de" ah? Edmond came to my mind, but he should be Ed. He always put that ._. then i thought of Dehan. LOL! cannot be lah! :x obviously right? :x cannot be. PUI ~ plus, i didn't view the video. I didn't even thought of it until he asked whether i like the song --" then when i pressed the link, cannot open. how sad --" blah ~
I'm gonna faint of hunger soon ._. Woke up too late to have lunch :x Have to like meet at Pohmun's house. So yeah, i didn't eat. My mom went Block644 to buy. x) Yayness, btw, TONIGHT GOT HOTDOG AGAIN :D I'm happy ~ xD I was thinking of someone just now. At Pohmun's house --" Okay, whatever. I shall stop now. Oh right, i realised something when i alighted from the bus. I forgotten to pass Pohmun my DS cartridge. :x Sandee wanted to play Tamagotchi Corner Shop2. :x die :x Sorry Sandee. >< It slipped my mind .__. SORRRRRRRY girl. :X
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16:02
:) I'm looking for a lover not a friend. Somebody who would be there when i need someone to talk to.
(: Good Afternoon people. :D lalala, woke up at 11.22pm :x blehs ! damn tired last night. after a day of hyperness. dots, i went hyper right at the morning. x) after that night ._. blah~ then yeah, bathed the moment i woke up :x cause going out later. to Pohmun's house for the History Project . haven't finish yet ._. hope after this trip can finish lor. always Pohmun and i do nia --" hope Sengsang, Syauqina and Vydees can make it.
I'm sick of always doing that darn Project ._. blah ~ Maths gonna finish Chapter4 liao lor, MrsFong was fast. She teached without us even knowing that she has taught alot from the textbook already. She prefer us doing Exercises and Worksheets. That's fine with me actually. When you tried to figure things out yourself, you might happen to understand better. Except for some? ._. If they didn't bother to listen and try, then jiu won't understand le. Dots, i want study now ._. Blah, after finishing the project, might be going to meet Joycelyn. She got things to say ._. Feel like calling Yilin down, but she confirm is go Bedok de lor --" Oh well, blah, shall ask Joycelyn about it later. :D I kinda miss him right now :x
Blah, it's a him that no one knows. Except Joycelyn and Yilin. x) Erm, i think i should stop and start getting prepare. Even though, there isn't much for me to bring ._. Lol, hahaha. Aww, i can't part with the computer. :x No lah, i don't know what's wrong with me actually. I'm reluctant to go. And i feel like saying some of my feelings --" Hmph, i WON'T. hahaha :D
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12:08
:) :D
hey people. :D woke up at the right time today. brother left at around 5plus ._. cause he wanted to meet his friends before going for the cross country. so yeah, went to school as per normal. but saw Joycelyn at the bus stop. then went to school. sat at the parade square. then it rained. :D shiok leh xD then had chinese lesson. my test results ._. 38 over 50. hahaha. :x stupid --" lucky never fail lah ;x i thought i flunk it :x then had Science. learning HEAT. stupid leh ._. i don't understand refraction and reflection of light --" that whole topic on light, i don't understand a single thing ;x blah, then went for recess. ate this time, but i was damn full. i NEARLY couldn't finish everything. oh right, it was freaking cold at that time ._. RAIN RAIN GO AWAY, COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY, LITTLE CHILDREN WANT TO PLAY, RAIN RAIN GO AWAY. :x hahaha, i'm crazy xD then had english. :D funfun xD played hangman lor ;x yayness xD hahaha, then school ended.
stood outside the general office for like so damn long. then went out saw aman and friends. wanted to follow them, follow half way, then was thinking, wth are we doing ._. so went back classroom lor. ZhengWei was there too ._. very long never talk to him ._. blah, then stayed there till some time. went to find carol. then pohmun and i decided to go back to school. went canteen, all stalls closed ._. then decided to go Gardens Macdonalds eat. so yeah, took the bus there. then Pat, Carol, Jiarong and Kenneth came after that. damn funny, we started talking about the Wuhan's trip AGAIN. then went crazy once more. LOL, started saying craps and so on. right, brushing your teeth with your fingers ._. carol's creation. :x hahaha, then went back to school for speech day.
reached kinda early. so slack a bit lor. then sat down DAMN LONG i tell you. then performance started with Choir. :x i dislike SGS's choir :x blah, then BAND. Second song performed was nice! damn nice xD then got two speechs ._. so long ~ then Prize Presentation time. :D not bad lah, not really boring. hahaha. then started with GuZheng, then Dance, then NCC! :D NCC's performance RULE! :D damn nice lah dey. the song rule, the performance rule. i got take picture of the last part. but lazy post :x blehs, then stayed a while in school. then left Pohmun, went to slack with Joycelyn and Yilin. at Block658. then slacked till 9plus went home lor. bathed, ate then now i'm blogging. :D hahaha, shall end already about the day. continue about other things. x)
hmm, thanks for those tags lah. :D Nooby-me, i wanna know who you are! :D hahaha. thanks AUDREY. :D find one day go ahmah's house again :x lalalas ~ so that i can be FREE of troubles. ;D and SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEENA, why do you want me to take a picture with you huh? to take down your BEAUTIFUL UNIFORM huh? x) hahaha, blah ~ seeeeeeeeyou guys. ;D
Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one i've been waiting for.
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one i need?
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22:18
:) I wanna die instantly.
ah, hello guys. i'm going crazy. no wait, i'm crazy already. i have to be admitted to the mental hospital already. i wanna bang my head on the wall and die instantly.
i wanna die. now that i've told les'partner what i was thinking, my head is hurting even more. ah, self praise is needed sometimes. but i'm going crazy. i don't wanna think so much. i'm always thinking. never once did my brain stop thinking. i'm always thinking. thinking and thinking about him and all kinds of things. ms rokia and so. i think of these problems because it bothers me. i don't know why, the other six don't think so much about it. but i do. it's not nice to have problems. it's impossible to not think of them. but it's not POSSIBLE for me to not think about them. i don't wanna fail any of my tests. i wanna do well for my studies. don't say i'm crazy. but that's the thing all students should do. i wanna listen in class. be attentive. quit smsing during lesson times. quit talking during lesson times. i wanna listen well and hard. get everything in. i don't wanna think about phb. i don't wanna fcuking think about him. i also don't wanna think about nykx. blah ~ i don't wanna think about them. they drive me crazy ! ah, i wanna bang the fcuking wall. i wanna chop my head off. dammit. fuckit. fcukfcukfcuk. this is really driving me crazy. i wanna cry ): i'm not strong as what anyone thinks. i'm not happy like what anyone thinks. i just don't wanna say. i don't wanna say. I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO FCUKING TELL ME WHAT TO DO. i don't want pple to ask me to give up. cause they don't understand. they never will. cause, it was my MEMORIES not theirs. he might have two-timed me. but he did not ill-treat me. he was really nice. i know he's just my second and there are alot more guys. but for now, i just want him. only him. but he seems so far far away. hai, jiayou. i wish you luck in woo-ing her. <3
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21:46
:) You make me wanna scream and go crazy.
i've changed my link. be sure to relink wor. x)
i have decided something, that is to start writing a post without pressing 'enter' after every sentences. lol, after all, this font kinda suit those kind of writing lah. :x hahaha. x) let's hope i can do it. cause i must TRY. try HARDHARD. :x hahaha. went to ahem's blog just now ._. was thinking of tons of things. then i saw HIS pm. dammit, it makes me feel like crying. :x cause if he is referring to her, then i wanna ask him the same thing tooo. does he actually appreciates US? the girls that loved him once. no, it's like, he destroyed a planet and leaped off to another planet. hahaha. blah, what am i talking ._.
i'm hungry ._. wonder what i'm gonna eat later. dots. :x so sick of hougang de foood. :x oh right, it's WeiChang and Jordan's bday today. ;D happy bday to both, yeah. :D hmm, nothing much to blog le. chaos :D
rah, i wanna scream and go crazy.
your words, your actions.
i feel like asking myself this stupid question again ;x
why do you not love me and instead, love others ?
it's a stupid question, yes i know.
but sometimes, i am stupid.
i ask myself this stupid question.
ah, STUPID.
now my heart broke :x
what a sentence. :x
lol, blah, you love her doesn't mean she love you.
just like us, we loved you, yet you don't.
blehs ! crazy me ._.
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20:14
:) i wonder what i'm thinking. :x
GOOD EVENING guys. :D
i changed my skin.
FINALLY, i'm so happy with this skin. :D
the font makes me crazy. xD
shall start with today.
went to school as usual. x)
then eh, first period was supposed to be PE.
but then teachers got meeting.
so ended up, sat at the parade square for like damn long.
half an hour i suppose.
then went for PE.
i went over and talked to the DM. :x
cause i wanted to ask if he was taking our class.
and YEAH, he was. ;x
he quite nice lah. not very bad.
anyway, Jefferson is so stupid. LOL. ;x
he shouted infrnt of the DM to Angus,
------- won't whack you de lah.
stupid lor --" then DM didn't say or do anything.
but he did gave a weird look. blah ~
then had Maths lesson.
gooooooooood. xD
learned more things lor.
left one and a half chapter to finish the topics needed to learn.
:D then went for recess.
ate, then went back class for english.
hmm, go through answers for vocabulary.
then had to do essay using 10 vocab words that appeared in the worksheet ._.
was supposed to like write AT LEAST a 100 or less than that.
as long as got that 10 words hao le.
but i ended up writing till 309 words :x
i hope i counted wrongly ._.
i will recount later --"
dots. then had Literature.
no essay based questions. :x
did those kind of like fill-in-the-blanks worksheet. xD
then had Chinese.
test ah ._. dammit, fail le. fail le. ;x
went to mall after that.
ate then saw some xinmin pri peeps.
then went to serangoon find jiarong.
then blah, slacked awhile.
then went home.
bathed and blogged. :D
chaos ~
rah, you said you were sensitive.
but you weren't.
what you said hurt me just now.
i admit i was pissed, but i felt like crying too.
if i didn't spare a thought for you,
i would have forced you to go in and shout at your face.
but i didn't, okay?
please, you ain't sensitive.
you mind what others say about you.
but you never thinked before whether what you say will hurt others.
don't say because you talk without thinking first.
that ain't a good point. you should try to think before you talk.
don't say " i don't give a damn. "
i know you don't. others don't too.
teachers don't care how fierce you are.
if you're rude, you're disrespecting the teachers.
if you want pple to respect you,
you must respect others too.
if not, you deserve NO respect.
i'm just voicing out my thoughts.
i don't mean anything. please don't get angry.
and, HEHE, i know a secret le. :D
hahhaa, you lah, so blur!
LOL! be careful next time.
if other pple heard it, then DIE. :x
hahaha. :D
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18:59
:) HMPH!
what a bad day.
i swear, i guess it was really a bad one.
--" i overslept.
zz, then was supposed to be late.
but i was saved by that traffic jam.
how lucky! :x
then reached school, first lesson was science.
boooooooooo* first lesson jiu lost my mood le.
then Maths had a test.
not bad, quite easy :x
then went for recess.
i was FREAKING hungry lah,
but i didn't know why, but i don't felt like eating.
so i brought greentea nia.
then had history.
pre-test again. damn hard --"
then english and literature was slacky.
then went to the multipurpose room for RP talk.
RP = Republic Poly.
lol, Audrey's school. x)
then 2E2 was so noisy, i felt so pissed ._.
i was trying to talk to my classmates.
then suddenly will have some stupid loud noises.
ohmytian, they are worse than 2E4. :x
i don't know why, they seemed so noisy today.
dots, whereas, 2E4 is extremely quiet.
must be due to what was happening lor ._.
what a bad day, i say.
blah, then stayed back for Malay class.
not really boring for the class today.
talked about Prison and Jails and so on.
after all, our teacher was an ex-prison warden. x)
hahaha, so she told us something.
oh right, i hate the CHINESE DEPARTMENT HOD.
dammit man, she's like so freaking unhappy with our class.
i was copying the words halfway,
then when i talked to Pohmun,
that damn fcuking teacher was there, outside the window,
starring at me. fcuk ._.
i stared back at her.
then i just turn away.
stupid! STUPID ! STUPID! i dislike 2E2's chinese teacher too.
that Ms GuoYu. --" she's like always coming to our class and kp cause of MissHuang.
dammit lah. not like MissHuang was going crazy.
she's playing with us. --"
STUPID! I HATE THIS TEACHERS, RAH.
what's the problem with this teachers anyway ~
always picking on 2E4. RAH. --"
then stayed back till 5plus then go home.
shall not elaborate lah.
personal matters.
personal stuffs.
just hoped that Jiarong will stop.
and LISTEN.
blah, bye.
oh right, doesn't mean you have mixedup thoughts means i don't have hor.
think about me too. i can be treated as a listener.
but don't keep getting me to give ideas.
it's drives me bonkers too.
rah!
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and take one step.
18:47
:) Fcukedup life man!
oh, fcuk.
i feel so fcukedup.
i'm so fcuking lost that i wanna cry.
dammit !
why does life has to be like this?!
true friend, PLEASE lor.
i'm like being treated as a PUPPET.
you know, a PUPPET.
i'm no longer fcuking important.
stead most important de.
no stead liao, want come back find me.
zz, fcukit. fcukit !
argh, this life is MESSED UP.
M-E-S-S-E-D-U-P i tell you.
MESSEDUP! zzz, i feel so crazy right now.
i wanna hit the wall. i wanna cry.
I WANNA FCUKING CUT MYSELF AGAIN.
WHY OH WHY, do i even bother to THINK!?
die suan le. DIE ~ dammit.
i hate this life,
i fcuking hate this kind of friends.
this kind of class.
this kind of teachers.
this kind of school.
ESP. this kind of ME.
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and take one step.
22:07
:) tired. worn out. DEAD. :x
LALALA, i shall try blogging about Monday then followed by TUESDAY :x
Monday ~
hmm, woke up in the morning.
met up with the girls.
went to school.
reading period first.
then went art room.
rokia talk alot.
then english, cher never come.
but must do report writing ._.
then recess.
then science lesson.
finished physics topic le. x)
then home econs ! :D
re-machine the stupid pencil box.
now better than before le.
hmm, okay lah x)
I'M HAPPY, I'M HAPPY :x
then after school, stayed back till about 4.30pm then go home.
Tuesday ~
woke up, DAMN TIRED ._.
went school met the girls.
first lesson, music.
then history got test ._.
memorise like SIAO :x
then recess, didn't eat.
then chinese lesson.
DISASTER lor ._.
the MingSheng ah ._.
Angus ah ._.
Kenneth ah ._.
Jiarong ah ._.
dots, DISASTER lor. for our class --"
wonder who pengwei lah ! booooooooooooooo*
then had Geography map reading test.
then Maths do revision for test tmr.
then art did some stuffs.
school end ~
stayed back for rehearsal. :x
speech day de ._.
kinda like pei pohmun lor ._.
then watched the performance.
blahblahblah, after that,
slacked a while with Joycelyn and Yilin.
then go home.
DAY END.
byebye.
ps : no mood blog, paiseh. --"
POHMUN! say i'm nice :x i blog for YOU leh :x
lalalala ~ xD
Pull me close,
and take one step.
19:37
:) Misunderstandings, causes mistakes, which then causes Guilt.
((: i shall continue from yesterday first, okay? x)
hmm, slacked with Joycelyn and Yilin.
blah, chatted for like two hours and so.
Yilin made Joycelyn and i laughed like a maddie ._.
okay, the thought of that makes me wanna laugh right now. :x
DON'T THINK! :x anyway, went home at around 7pm.
reached home at 7.15pm then CHIONG to watch my SHOW. :D
quite boring, but still nice x)
so funny ! :D then played DS at night. did i? ._.
dots, forget liao. oh no, i used the computer at night :x
then used till 10plus jiu felt tired.
so slept.
then woke up at around 11 this morning ;x
bathed, and ate lunch.
stupid, wanted to do homework de lor ._.
then my mother spoiled my mooood --"
now i forgot do ART also.
dammit ._. stupid rokia --"
blah, painting --"
how hard can it be ? :x
let's hope it's easy. :X
hmm, later gonna watch tv again. :D
blah, nothing to blog le.
i shall chiong art now --"
seeeeyou. xD
Pull me close,
and take one step.
18:22
:) Stand in the eye of the tornado, and look at the world.
(: hello
a fine day to NOT emo. xD
anyway, was supposed to go to Pohmun's house for that damn project.
ended up, when i called my mom,
she asked me to stay at home and wait for her.
she has tasks for me ._.
blah, so i waited.
then helped her with some things.
then cooked maggi for myself.
hmm, then while eating,
Yilin and Les'partner called ._.
so yeah, later go down slack with them lor.
once in a while lah. hahaha.
hmm, so bored ._.
talked with MPI last night.
mooodswings ~ xD
slept rather early.
ohright, had a damn freaking weird dream.
i dreamt of someone.
and me ._. doing some things --"
not those kind of pervertic things lah.
dots --" don't think too far. hahaha.
whatever, i'm just shocked i dreamt of him. lol. :x
hmm, i'm so hot right now ._.
WUHAN ~ ohmytian, how i wish it's winter at that time.
not summer D: oh well, blah, byebye. :D
stand in the eye of the tornado and look at the world.
issit even possible?
it's not possible to stand in the eye of the tornado.
it's not possible, to understand everything that's happening in the world.
why oh why, do i even bother to ask myself so many questions.
why oh why, did i even ask myself to hold on to it.
when nothing would ever happen between you and i again.
when you look me in the eyes, i felt like the world has revived.
then when i turned around, the world is dead again.
how i wish, i could look into your eyes till the day i die.
Pull me close,
and take one step.
16:24
:) What my name means. x)
What Jesslin Tan Jie Ling Means
|
You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
|
saw this in Pohmun's blog.
so i did about my name too.
i simply LOVE the last sentence. x)
Pull me close,
and take one step.
20:39
:) I miss those times. ):
i'm here to blog. x)
today was Sports Day.
went to school for a sake of those consent forms.
sat there like so damn freaking long till 12noon.
and the whole school had to sit under the sun ._.
stupid --" then after everything ended,
i went home straight away.
cause i wanted to bathe. :x
while the others have their own things to do.
so i didn't follow them.
yeah, i reached home at about 12.40pm? ._.
then bathed lor.
blah, now i'm enjoying the aircon.
and i feel like sleeping :x
*yawn* i should have my lunch first, eh?
hao bah. bye.
): i want to be the one with you in the movie theatre.
25 more days, huh ...
Pull me close,
and take one step.
13:41
:) I wanna break down and cry. ):
hey guys. :D
it started out as a fine day.
then an angry day.
then a happy day.
and then an emo day. x)
hahaha. sian, tmr sports day liao.
i don't wanna go there let mosquitoes bite :x
blah, no choice. ):
talking with les'partner, elton and wilson right now.
i ain't talking ._.
i'm like just plainly reading it.
dots, they are rather funny --"
i'm so sad right now. ):
okay lah, not sad lah.
not in the mood to actually do anything.
hai, ):
i read my past blogs. xD
my first one in this account.
it's so STUPID!
twits for the months of 2006.
then disgusting things for the start of 2007 till mid year? ._.
then yucks, i cannot stand it. LOL!
i cannot stand what i've written before.
it's really so mushy and so ._.
i can't even believe i did that. :x
eeeeee :x the thought of that ._.
but i didn't blog much during that time.
like during school days lor.
i rmbed once after school, with huimin and nicholas.
then once with les'partner also.
so funny, so fun. such good times. LOL ! :x
okay, wth, why am i like talking about those times again ._.
can i like be emo again ._.
it seems so hard with the crazieseven around.
i don't even know how to stay emo for some time already.
even after knowing, he like's someone else.
i'm still laughing and giggling away.
ohmytian ._. amazing me. :x
i haven't cried for a longlong time.
that's good right? :x
okay, maybe not longlong bah.
recently have mah ._.
i think no ._.
or maybe have? ;x
hmm, don't feel like blogging le.
chaos ! :D
and a moment like this by kelly clarkson is SUPER NICE :D
and this marks the end of my 300th post. :D
Pull me close,
and take one step.
20:42
:) I don't deny the fact that i miss you. x)
hello people. x)
hmm, was kinda late this morning.
okay, maybe not.
same time :x
lalalala, then reached school bus stop,
saw this stupid teacher, i forgot how to spell her name already ._.
blah, then went to study corner, waited for mandy.
then left for school.
AGAIN, must sit on top of some wet spots.
cause of Rokia. zz.
so pissed alright ._.
then MrChen came, then we look at him.
then he said " if wet, you can sit behind, i'll answer for it. "
so nice of him, but don't want lor.
let him kena scolded meh?
we already know teacher picking on us le.
if not, why Dehan and the other class peeps can sit behind.
the six of us cannot? we must sit on wet spots NO MATTER WHAT.
blah, then had PE.
oh wait, the teachers were talking so much about sports day.
which is tmr. --"
then blah, had PE.
ran one round. no idea why, this time, i couldn't run le.
the sun was really bright at that time.
it was facing my direction, right on our faces.
so i didn't run. cause i couldn't see a single thing.
blah, then played captain's ball again.
as usual, half way through, i got pissed and left the court.
so guailan, and even though i know it's just a game,
it's like, so !@%$!^%@.
she asked me to shoo and not stand so near the catcher but YET, she's doing it herself.
it wasn't the like first time. it was like the second and so.
i just left the court and went to the toilet.
blah ~ then had maths.
learned how to solve problems sums using quadratic expressions or was it WITH quadratic expressions ._.
blah, then went for recess.
then went back to class for english period.
then again between english and literature period,
i got pissed with the class again.
i don't know lah, i saw one person's look on the face when i went to take the notebook from dehan,
she was giving me the look that i'm lame to be so pissed or maybe petty or sth.
then i was like thinking, if i like care about the class and let them make so much noise, i won't have the responsibility to do something that someone has entrusted me with.
if that's so, all the more, i really can't be a counsellor like how Mages has said.
blah, whatever it is, i guess hardly anyone will understand bah.
then had chinese.
carol say we all can go.
cause MdmLeow say who want go jiu after school take form from her.
yayness? x) oh, did i say where we're going? :x
oh well, if i didn't, then i might as well say now.
erm, the school is bring the people from WuShu to a place at China.
i don't know where issit. but i know it's at 湖南.
cause i got see the map, then Chunyu told Sengsang, HuangLaoShi and me. x)
and he said that, the place is kinda hot :(
XiZhang is the coldest somehow. or maybe Mongolia.
oaky, whatever.
tmr need go stadium liao lor. want pon also cannot ._.
cause need take the consent form from cher ._.
stupid :x
after school, went back to class.
cause YiLin and Yingyu wanna take chinese oral x)
then their passage so hard ! :x
but they better than us lor.
we look at them when they reading. x)
then talk also can. tcher never scold xD
hahaha, so fun lah. x)
then carol, pat and mandy left.
left pohmun, yilin, yingyu and me.
then we pei teacher go outside eat.
then saw jiarong they all.
expected carol to be there, but she wasn't.
then ate chicken rice.
chat chat with teacher.
so nice! kinda know some things about her le. x)
then eh, what ah, she left at 2.45pm with Yingyu.
for GirlGuides.
so left the three of us.
at first is wait till Yilin finish eating.
then later, pei her wait for Joycelyn.
had a girl's talk. x)
till Joycelyn came.
then went home.
at first, i was rather, well,
heartbroken? jealous? sad?
NAH! i wasn't. xD i was rather curious actually.
who that girl really was. so i asked.
and he told me not his stead.
and at first, i believed him.
but while talking to someone,
i started doubting his words :x
but maybe i should like trust him?
i don't know.
but i do feel rather happy for once.
very happy actually :x
Pull me close,
and take one step.
16:38
:) FRAMERS. FCUKYOU LAH.
What a 'BEAUTIFUL' day!
it was an OKAY day.
UNTIL, 11.14am,
when SOMEONE called me, AND FREAKINGLY SPOILED MY DAY.
oh fcukit !
If you dare write, you DARE to let her see.
If you think you are RIGHT, then let her SEE.
if you think you're wrong, then DON'T WRITE IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
then Angus, was so NOISY and IRRITATING.
he kept GOING ON AND ON about not being able to be a councillor.
then i turned around and told him " you wanna be a councillor, you have to have LEADERSHIP QUALITIES, RESPONSIBILITY, and DISCIPLINE.
then yilin and sengsang AGREED.
then Angus paused, and said " Then you think Mages have meh? "
then i said " No. " i forgot what i said already.
whatever it is, Angus started it. He started backstabbing Mages.
and he put ALL the blame on ME.
ccb. he wrote a letter to Mages.
i shall let you see the letter.
i'll explain how i got it later on.
Red - Angus.
Blue - Mages
Black - My thoughts.
Angus : now i very sad because i don't know why they so fast select counsellor. And i don't know why i never be ...
Mages : Maybe you were not suitable ...
Angus : I tell you this you cannot angry huh?
Mages : what. Tell.
Angus : Just now i talking to Jesslin about me not a counsellor, she say she think you will get sack. ( as if i did! ohmytian! i only said i don't think he's suitable. i didn't say he will kena sack! )
Mages : Why?
Angus : She say you very not serious then she say you don't have potential. (wtf! i didn't lahs! )
Mages : How can she know that i have no potential? She what? My MOTHER?!
Angus : That's why.
Mages : Jesslin bad ! very bad! and talk behind people's back. Damn bad you know !
Angus : But you don't think MrYap very bad? Just kick pple out and anyhow allow pple in. ( Angus keeps blaming MrYap for being bias. But, he's not! )
Mages : Maybe i talk to Jesslin face to face.
Angus : NO! just 4get ... Let what had happen go ... Don't start a fight.
Mages : then you also do the same lah!
Angus : Now is i don't know why MrYap just kick me out! and just let someone to take over me! ): i'm really very desperate!
Mages : ok, you say don't ask Jesslin about this, right? Why? You scared? You also never say what!?
Angus : Go ask then. You sure regret. Jesslin sure got way to talk over you. And she got YiLin help. go then! i not stopping you at all now. ( craps! he's saying as though, i DID backstabbed him and i'll try to cover up. FCUK! i can tell him, i'll get Sengsang to help too. Sengsang was there, he heard it all! )
Mages : Sure, why not! she talk behind my back wat! Imagine i talk behind your back! You don't like right! Like she one of the commitee leader like that. Talking about leadership to me. ( well, Mages said this because, he is the Welfare Commitee Leader, and i'm just an ASSISTANT MONITRESS, so i DON'T HAVE leadership qualities. FINE lor! FCUK )
i'm so PISSED alright! he is FRAMING me.
putting all the blame on ME !
ccb ._. he don't have that right ah, HE WAS THE ONE THAT STARTED IT.
he still have the cheek to show me this letter lor.
saying that he's not WRONG, and i'm the one that's wrong.
now Mages totally hates me, yeah?!
ccb! i hate him lah. I DON'T CARE.
i'm gonna talk to Mages.
I DON'T FCUKING CARE.
bastard!
fcukyou fcukyou! ):
wahlao, i hate them lah.
stupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstudpistupidstupidstupidstupidstupid!
Pull me close,
and take one step.
16:25
